The rewarding feeling of success overwhelmed me as I stood in the open doorway of the train cruising along at 70mph as I left the orphanage this morning. Tears going down my cheeks as I thought how I had done what I had set out to do. Six months of prep, six flights getting here, a month of time with my boys, and I know that they know that "HE" loves them!!!! Few things this big have I set out to do, that I have been able to say I did the right thing,  It feel like a burden has been lifted off my back!
        I can't forget the looks on their faces as I brought the ten eldest boys into my room yesterday (they aren't allowed in the house) and gave them all gifts, rapped with flowers all laid out on my bed with all their names. The wonderful element of shock and surprise, of knowing they are special was priceless! I gave them all my belongings that I didn't absolutely need, which included everything but pair of underwear, and the Indian clothes that I bought here, it sounds funny and weird but they don't have underwear, and have to bathe outside so it is hard always holding a towel while trying to bathe.
Bless the LORD Joseph let all the older boys come with us to the train station, we all piled into this little tinny van made for five, there was twelve of us!
        One of the other things that brought me success feeling was buying them all six watermelons, that in it's self was not the greatest thing. Sadly when you are one of 50 kids in a Hindu country EVERYTHING is rationed and controlled,  you NEVER have any say or choice in your life, such is life. So I was very tired of seeing them all line up and get handed something. They never get a choice in anything, more of that wonderful Hindu culture. India is run off complete control and complete submission which doesn't allow them to think at all. interestingly this has made me think about how in the kingdom of God there is no absolute control, between any relationship, Christ has give us choice in everything.  I was giving them all ink pens which came in four colors, and some kids couldn't even choose which color they wanted. Anyway, the LORD gave me this idea of how I could show them wealth and freedom in the feasting of the melons. I set the melons in six different places of the eating hut, then assigned each one to a older boy, and gave him a sharp object to cut it with. I told all the kids to get in groups with a melon, so I had around eight kids to a melon, then I explained that I wanted the assigned person to feed his group how "he" thought best, and let them go!!!!! Yes some of them honestly didn't have a clue how to cut a melon and took more time then you could imagine but I chastised anyone telling them how they should do it. It was one of the most rewarding things to see them all devouring with authority of their possession, freedom!!!! I have learn a greater meaning the the phrase: "it's not what you do but how you do it!" wow... Looking back on every day with the children how hard I was on myself, always thinking of how I could and should have done this, and that, and this better, and then just straight up not knowing what to do!!!!!
       Christ has taught me more in this month then many combined, it feels like I have put so many pieces to the puzzle that I had in hand in their places, so many things just have come full circle. But what has changed my life never to be the same is the LOVE that the Lord poured out on me one night. When I first came here I was expected to "teach" to all the ranging in age from 4 to 17 in the "talk at" method.not my teaching style at all, so I had I hard time coming up with what to say that would be fruitful for the mass. Asking the LORD what to tell them he told me teach about love, So I did, talk all about Jesus' love and how dear they each are and how Jesus has come to be their best friend, how he wants a relationship with them I haven't seen one relationship between anybodyin India  that I would say I am envies of to say the least. Hinduism is a religion of fear, everything is based off of fear and respect! Perfect love casts out fear, sadly these kids are only taught about the fear factor which there is no relationship in. Then I ask the LORD again what should I teach on, I was told LOVE again, I said I already talk about that, I can't just teach about love every single day.... Or can I? This was in  the beginning of my last week. I was sitting watching the children go through their routines of singing the same songs, and praying long prayers, and just an overview of their whole life routine in mind, I started weeping knowing that they might never know what a relationship with my Jesus feels like, from here the pouring of GOD'S love came upon  me like nothing ever has before, it was just as I was controlled by the LOVE of GOD the spirit just filled me with the knowledge of his love, and how it is truly only a relationship with Jesus that gives true love. I feel that I could type all night and can't even begin to touch what the spirit gave me there in like one second! I am changed, my life is changed, everything is new and different.
I am staying with Joseph's sister and husband right now in visakhapatnam, second largest city in the state. probably a week or so, Caleb is staying here with me making sure I am under control. I want to stay in this state till the end of the month. Then I will head for Nepal and my friends relatives there in the refugee camps.